zombie

so i woke up yesterday morning with the absolute best song in my head.  zombie. by the cranberries.  at least 8 degrees of awesome strung into that song.  just think of the lyrics, in your head, in your hee-a-d-d, in you he-e-ea-d-d, again and again.  but as you wail these notes, remember that you have to punch yourself in the throat at the right beat to simulate the perfect tone and syncopation.  but sitting there eating my costco peach yogurt watching stephen get ready for work, i thought, "maybe they have something here." 


how much of what we deem reality is really real?  for example, take stephen and his latest post please pass. google doesn't define the reality of his blog. it's there. but yet in his head, he wants greater recognition (and maybe i'm putting motive where is doesn't exist) and for the grand wizard of the world wide web to dub him sir deltar, ruler of the dominion.


sometime when it's cold outside all it takes is one good shiver to shake off the annoyance. sometimes when you're nervous you just have to stop thinking nervous. i remember this time when i was walking with my buddies back from the beach heading to the eki outside of fujisawa, just a little ways from tokyo, and i was trying to be poetical with the statement, "don't worry, i have an innate abitlity to be where i've been before." but other times i think that we define ourselves through diversity, which can be unifying or dividing. and sometimes i can't remember how i dress in the summer when it's winter cause its so cold and can't conceptualize the idea of leaving the house in shorts, flip-flops, and awesome t-shirts. sometimes i think i'm the same. sometimes i think i'm different, and i'm speaking chronologically. sometimes your ahead, but if everybody turns around, you're in the back.


either way:

resilience requires
redefining reality.